I’ve been a little apprehensive posting this, mainly because it’s really personal information. It’s like posting a naked picture of yourself because there’s nothing really to hide. Okay, that sounded off … but you get what I am saying.
I am posting the naked truth about where I am health wise.
While it’s all kinds of frightening, it’s also very liberating. This is the part of accountability that I not only need, but want. I’ve found in the past that the more I keep myself accountability, especially online the easier the journey is for me. It gives me that extra motivation to exercise self-control so that at the end of the day I know I gave MY best effort.
I’ve been stuck in this fitness range for too long. Basically, I’ve been treading water while still trying to figure things out with my thyroid and testosterone. I love swimming, but treading water gets you nowhere. I’m done with looking for solutions while inside a doctor’s office. The gym, road and kitchen is where my focus is now.
It’s MY health and I’m fighting for MY solution.
I am optimistic about the next 12 weeks, especially the next four as I am doing this ‘fat flush’ diet. You can see my goals for both programs below. A part of me wants to temper my optimism, because of the frustrations I’ve had with my health the past year and a half. But, at the same time this feels different. I expect more from myself and my results.
I don’t feel suffocating pressure to achieve these goals. In fact, I know if I’m 100% in following the plan there will be success. And, if that success is smaller than expected, I just keep fighting. It’ll just take me a bit longer to achieve my overall goals. I’ve just got to keep that optimism and determination going if it does take longer.
I often think of the Margaret Thatcher quote, “you may have to fight a battle more than once to win it.”
This is why I changed my Instagram account from “Back2Phat” to “Fight4Phat” … this is a fight and I’m going to win.
CURRENT FITNESS GOALS
FOUR WEEK GOALS
WEIGHT GOAL – 255-260
BODY FAT – 25%
SQUAT – TWO MINUTES
RUNNING – 35 MINUTE 5K
12 WEEK GOALS
WEIGHT GOAL – 235-240
BODY FAT – 20%
SQUAT – FOUR MINUTES
RUNNING – SUB-30 MINUTE 5K
12 WEEKLY STATISTICS
The following is the progress of my 12 week program. During weeks 1-4 I am following my ‘fat flush’ plan that I wrote about last week. I will discuss my plans for the remaining weeks in a couple of weeks. I am still formulating the plan with my trainer.
WEEK ONE (OCTOBER 14)
WEIGHT – 273.8
BODY FAT % – 30.2
BMI – 32.7
WAIST – 47.25″
ARMS – 18″
THIGHS – 27″
WEEK TWO (OCTOBER 21)
WEEK THREE (OCTOBER 28)
WEEK FOUR (NOVEMBER 4)
WEEK FIVE (NOVEMBER 11)
WEEK SIX (NOVEMBER 18)
WEEK SEVEN (NOVEMBER 25)
WEEK EIGHT (DECEMBER 2)
WEEK NINE (DECEMBER 9)
WEEK TEN (DECEMBER 16)
WEEK ELEVEN (DECEMBER 23)
WEEK TWELVE (DECEMBER 30)
THE OTHER SIDE OF THE CAMERA
If there is one thing I’ve known for among friends it’s my selfies. I take my share. Appropriately share … hopefully. I do worry about taking too many. But, you know what? I haven’t always been that way.
Back in my “BIGGER DAYS” — as I like to call them. I hardly got in front of a camera. In fact, I hated the camera. I guess that’s what happens when you’re over 400lbs and feel like wet garbage? Why would you want to take a picture of wet worthless garbage?
Instead of avoiding cameras, I embraced them. Not as a subject of photography, but as a photographer. Subconsciously, I took control of the camera by being the designated photographer with friends and family. I guess I felt that if I owned the camera, I could hide behind the camera?
Kinda messed up if you ask me.
And, for the most part, I really fell in love with photography, it’s still something I enjoy. But, I used it as a crutch. I recorded everyone’s memories of road trips and family vacations, but avoided recording mine. And, if I had to be in a picture I learned how to manipulate it so that my body was hidden.
It really wasn’t until I lost about 100lbs. that I started stepping away from the back of the camera. A lot of it had to do with my regained self confidence, but my view on life changed. Instead of being an observer of life around me, I was creating life around me.
That’s why most of my selfies tell a story. They’re not just pictures of me. If I learned something from Big Josh’s obsession of photographer it’s capturing the narrative at hand. I don’t take selfies just so you can ogle at how ridiculously good looking I am (but, seriously thanks noticing). I do it to express my life in that moment.
And, believe or not, I don’t take that many pictures as I once did. Once, I took over 300 pictures of a family trip to Disneyland. This past trip … maybe 75? Enough to tell a story.
But, that’s also because I’ve learned that life isn’t just about pictures, it’s about pictures from the heart. It’s about pictures of being an active participant in life and cherishing the moments that mean the most.
That is one reason why I haven’t picked up my Canon Rebel camera in a couple years. There’s too much life to be lived and memories to make. Plus, my iPhone is still small to hide behind and easy enough to capture a moment I really want to capture.
FAT PICTURES OF JOSH
No matter how far you are in the journey, it’s always good/fun/inspiring to look back at how far you’ve come …
WEDNESDAY’S FITNESS MOTIVATION