Tag: 10K

Looking Beyond 180 …

It’s hard to imagine that I am just 21 races from hitting my 180 goal. I knew this day would come, but when I made the goal — I honestly thought I would be pushing 40 a BIT closer than I am now. If you’re keeping track at home — I turned 36 just last month.

When I realized that I was going to hit this goal MUCH sooner, I decided to hit my 180 goal at the Handcart Days Half Marathon in July of next year. Not only was this my first half marathon, but it’s in my hometown and a part of a celebration that has a lot of meaning for me. It just seems perfect.

So that means I have 10 months to finish these 21 races and hit that goal. I am excited for that journey and whatever it brings — it’ll include my 100 mile run, a couple of marathons and some fun trail and road races.

But, I am also beginning to look beyond my 180th race. Some people have already been asking what will be after the 180? 300 races? 500 races? Will I go into triathlons? Will I focus more on ultras? Or just stop like Forrest Gump?

What?

Honestly, I want to be more ambiguous with my next journey. I don’t want to focus on the number of races as I want to focus more on the adventure. An adventure of collective goals — from PRs to destination races to destination places to run. If I’ve learned anything from the 159 races that I’ve done so far it’s that there’s so much more joy in the adventure than anything else.

I want more of that.

I thrive for adventure and I am excited to embrace that with more tenacity in the coming years. And, as I am reclaiming my health and thyroid, I look forward to getting faster and hitting some of those PR goals I’ve wanted to hit for the past few years.

Not only do I want to hit that sub-two half marathon time, but I still also want to run the Boston Marathon, New York City Marathon and of course — run at Walt Disney World (already got Disneyland covered). There are a lot of places around the country that I want to run. Places that don’t necessarily require a race bib either — the Grand Canyon, the Golden Gate Bridge, the National Parks here in Utah and the Salt Flats.

My plan is to take the next 4-6 months to come up with a bucket list of locations, races and other running goals I want to accomplish after I run my 180th race next July. I’ve made a similar list before, but I want to fine tune that — and probably shorten it a bit (it was about 50 items long). But, I then want to get to work on it!

I am always up for new races and places to run, so if you’d like suggest places to run — PLEASE! Just leave a comment in the comments below. And, of course if you have some fun and unusual goals I should attempt — I’d love to hear them too!

Running has been good to me. Really good to me. There’s been ups and downs over the last 6-7 years of my adventure so far, but it’s the people that keep me going and out there on the road or trail.


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Fight4Phat: Looking back while fighting forward

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It’s been a slow week on purpose — well — for a couple of reasons. And, it’s all been on purpose actually. One, I needed to give my body a rest from the strict diet. Don’t worry I am not binge eating Skittles and Rockstars instead — I’m just following a less strict version of last month’s diet plan.

Then, secondly, I am preparing for my run this weekend. I am running my first ultra marathon — the Antelope Island 50K — here in Utah. I want my legs to be fresh come Saturday morning — and I don’t want my body going into the run starved or too calorie deficient. I’ve got a freaking 50K to run!

But, that doesn’t mean it’s been a bad week. Actually, it’s been pretty good. This past week marked the sixth anniversary of me starting this little journey of mine. It’s hard calling it JUST a weight-loss or running journey — it’s a journey about life.

It’s also been a week of reflection — setting new goals — and looking toward the future. Both near and distant. Both running goals — life goals — spiritual goals — financial goals — etc., etc., etc.

Then again I do that a lot. It keeps things fresh and I feel like I am progressing forward. The last thing I want to do is feel like I am stagnant. I’ve done that too much in my life. That’s one reason why I am not a fan of New Year’s resolutions and goals — well except counting my bananas for the year — I am at 824 as of today — I digress.

Goals and resolutions should be a year long practice. Every month, week and day brings something new — a new opportunity, a new challenge or a new adventure. How do you prepare and tackle those without resolution and goals?

Anyways — I feel like I am writing a post I should probably save until the first of the new year. So I should stop there.

But, right now, I am just excited about Saturday. That’s been the focus and understanding what I am about to do. I have some of the same thoughts and feelings I had when I ran my first marathon. There’s a lot of excitement going on — while a considerable amount of fear as well.

But, honestly, I love the mixture of both of those feelings. I miss it. I used to get that feeling before my races early on into my journey. Especially the marathons. Sadly, race starts have become somewhat routine so it’s harder for that feeling to manifest itself.

Don’t worry though — I’ll be feeling it a lot come Saturday. Hopefully it just won’t make me hurl.

I joke. But, not really.

Anyways — looking forward and excited for Saturday and beyond!


ANNIVERSARY OF MY FIRST STEPS

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If case you missed it — yesterday was the sixth year anniversary of the beginning of my weight-loss journey. But, as I wrote yesterday the journey — really — hasn’t really been about the weight — as it’s been more about living life.

The weight has been a bi-product about how I’ve learned to love and respect myself.

Still, though, hard to believe it was six years ago that I made the decision to live MY life! Time flies!


12 WEEK STATISTICS

The following is the progress of my 12 week program. During weeks 1-4 I am following my ‘fat flush’ plan that I wrote about earlier. I will discuss my plans for the remaining weeks in a couple of weeks. I am still formulating the plan with my trainer.

WEEK ONE TO NOW DIFFERENCE
WEIGHT – 273.8 / 272.00 = -1.8
BODY FAT % – 30.2 / 24.0 = -6.2
BMI – 32.7 / 32.2 = -0.5
WAIST – 47.25″ / 46.5″ = 0.75″
ARMS – 18″ / 16.75″ = -1.25″
THIGHS – 27″ / 27″ = 0.00
WEEK ONE (OCTOBER 14)
WEIGHT – 273.8
BODY FAT % – 30.2
BMI – 32.7
WAIST – 47.25″
ARMS – 18″
THIGHS – 27″
WEEK TWO (OCTOBER 21)
WEIGHT – 272.0
BODY FAT % – 24.0
BMI – 32.2
WAIST – 46.5″
ARMS – 16.75″
THIGHS – 27″
WEEK THREE (OCTOBER 28)
WEIGHT – 272.8
BODY FAT % – 23.9
BMI – 32.7
WAIST – 46.25″
ARMS – 16.5″
THIGHS – 27″
WEEK FOUR (NOVEMBER 5)
WEIGHT – 272.2
BODY FAT % – 23.0
BMI – 32.5
WAIST – 46″
ARMS – 16.4″
THIGHS – 26.5″
WEEK FIVE (NOVEMBER 12)
WEIGHT – 272.2
BODY FAT % – 23.0
BMI – 32.5
WAIST – 46″
ARMS – 16.4″
THIGHS – 26.5″

WEEKLY WEIGH-INS

There are LOTS of numbers above, for me I like the simplicity of just seeing the progressive simply from week to week.

Here’s my weight-loss from week to week …

10/12/15 – 277.8 (N/A)
10/14/15 – 273.8 (-04.0)
10/21/15 – 272.0 (-05.8)
10/28/15 – 272.8 (-05.0)
11/05/15 – 272.2 (-05.6)
11/12/15 – 000.0 (-00.0)
11/19/15 – 000.0 (-00.0)
11/26/15 – 000.0 (-00.0)
12/03/15 – 000.0 (-00.0)
12/10/15 – 000.0 (-00.0)
12/17/15 – 000.0 (-00.0)
12/24/15 – 000.0 (-00.0)
12/31/15 – 000.0 (-00.0)

FAT PICTURES OF JOSH

No matter how far you are in the journey, it’s always good/fun/inspiring to look back at how far you’ve come.

Here are some classic pictures of Fat Josh —

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If you’re wondering — yes, this is a funeral I had for my parakeet. I was lucky enough to get a service in, mainly because my Mom wanted me to hurry and get it into the garbage before I stunk up the house. I promise my Mom has a heart.
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Me and my sister, Jess, on our birthday back in 2008. This actually might have been the highest I’ve ever weighed. Well beyond the 400lbs. threshold I reached in November 2009.
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My roommate and great friend — Jon — and I on graduation day at SUU. Don’t let my smile fool you — I wasn’t happy. It was actually one of the worst days of my life.

THURSDAY’S FITNESS MOTIVATION

Yes, this is my quote. I won’t lie — I hate quoting myself — it seems a tad narcissistic, but I had a lot of positive comments about the quote from my post yesterday that I thought I’d make it into a meme.

It’s the best way to live life, right?

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Episode 01: The Utah Runcast

Joshua, Jim and Jorge talk about their first half and full marathon experiences. Joshua and Jorge try to find a marathon for Jim. And, Josh admits his irrational fear of deer.

All that on the pilot episode of The Utah Runcast …

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Things Runners Do, That Don’t Quite Transfer Well to Real Life

Us runners are a peculiar group. We’re methodical in our madness, religious to our routine and slaves to our schedules. Well, most of us. But, you have to admit I KINDA just described you.

But, don’t worry, I am not pointing fingers. I am totally in the same boat. But, you have to admit, runners are a peculiar group of athletes. Especially when we start talking about our battle injuries post-run.

Now, I have now been running for just over four years or so. I feel somewhat “entrenched” into the running culture. To be honest with you, I feel that the culture and my personality were perfect for each other. Like, if running was a girl, I’d already be married with at least a kid on the way. Maybe with a little house in the Avenues with a white picket fence and a dog in the yard. Which would most definitely be a black lab that loves to run.

I couldn’t ask for a better relationship.

And, because I am basically wanting to marry running this is why runners get tagged with that “STRANGE” label. Well, to the defense of others, I’ve always been labeled strange ever since I got myself into Special Ed by faking a speech impediment in the third grade.

But, because us “STRANGE” runners are so religious and methodical to our routines there are TIMES (sometimes a lot) that strangeness crosses over to “REAL LIFE.” I can’t tell you how many conversations I’ve had to stop because I started talking about bowel movements to a non-running crowd. It can get #totesawks real fast without a filter.

And, I lost my filter years ago.

So what are some of the things that runners do that don’t cross over into real life that well? Or at all? I decided to make a list and share them here. If you have an additional ones you’d love to add, by all means share them in the comments below.

My list …


Taking Pictures of our Falling Apart Feet

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I am pretty guilty of this. I’ve been known to post pictures of my blistering ugly feet. I remember how proud I was of my first blood blister and black toenail after running the St. George Marathon. As a runner there is a sense of pride about them, because you EARNED them. You EARNED those blisters and bruises!

But, why we might take pride in them, it’s hard to convince friends and family otherwise if they’re not accustomed to the running culture.

(EDIT: it’s been pointed out to me that even people WITHIN the running community don’t like seeing my ugly feet … meh).

Farmer Blows anywhere and everywhere

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I have to admit, I have a problem when it comes to Farmer Blows. I do it MUCH more than I should. And, in non-running situations too. It’s just, while running it’s the easiest way to get rid of what’s coming out of your nose hole.

And, it doesn’t help that I am actually REALLY good at it too. Seriously, most of my running friends know when I have to blow I am not going to get any of it on them. Really, it’s all about a quick glance, aim and quicker projectile. If you are a runner and are squirming at this, don’t pretend you don’t do it too!

But, like I do this much more than I should outside of running and for that … yeah … I should stop.

Breaking Wind Before Friends

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One of the easiest ways to tell the difference between seasoned and new runners is their frequency of passing gas while running. Before you start giving me the run around about the politeness of passing gas within the company of others, it happens in running … a lot. That’s why us runners just … turn the other cheek … when it happens.

It’s just outside of the realm of running that you start getting in trouble. And, if you run a lot, you have to make an even more concerted effort not to pass in front of others. But, within running it’s absolutely essential for optimal running.

Take my word for it all you non-runners, okay?

Hugging Friends while Sweaty

il_340x270.610031456_jeh0Is there anything more glamorously disgusting then hugging friends almost immediately after a race? Especially one that you PR’d at? Or one that is DEAD middle of the summer? It’s just a part of running that doesn’t phase most runners.

But, when you try to hug someone, like, my mother after a run … and she’ll have none of it. This is a conscience effort that us sweaty runners need to be more mindful. But, sometimes you get caught in the moment. Can you really blame us?

Hanging Out with Friends without Showering

020309-dennysfree-fc-706363GUILTY. GUILTY. GUILTY. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve gone to Denny’s or somewhere to eat after a race or long run … without changing. And, needless to say, I reeked. But, then again ALL of us reeked.

I have actually asked other people what they would do in this situation. Would you just go after your run or would you change and then go to eat? I’ve gotten mixed opinions, though you should know that my mother told me I should always shower and change before going out.

Of course she would.

But, at least most runners saw no problem going to places like Denny’s or Village Inn in your running clothes. Just not anywhere fancier. Which I see their point. I don’t think people at Ruth’s Chris Steakhouse want post-run Josh dining with them. Or anyone all sweaty and nasty like for that matter.

So, to KINDA combat that, I try to bring at least an extra shirt with me to runs to change into after a run. It helps with SOME of the stank. But, still, there are things us runners can do to at least not offend other patrons … THAT BAD.

Sharing WAY too much Information with Others

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A filter is something that us runners sometimes lack … or struggle with (or maybe it’s just me?). We talk about chaffing, bowel movements, blisters, horror port-a-potty stories, bloody nipples, etc., etc., etc. Common conversation topics for us runners, but MAJOR taboos for our non-running friends and family members.

There have been a plenty a time I started talking about my bloody nipples to my Mom when it dawned on me that she was giving me a look of horror. Luckily, I’ve learned to keep my port-a-potty horror stories within my running circle, but I can’t say the same about my bowel movements or chaffing stories.

I guess the biggest problem here is that we can get TOO comfortable in front of our running friends talking about these that we let that slide a bit too much elsewhere in life.


Is there anything else I might have forgotten? I am sure there are other things out there. If so, add your own in the comments below.

Reese’s Run & Going BIG in Big Cottonwood Canyon …

IMG_0751It’s been a fun, frustrating and kinda long week/weekend for me. I started if off with a lot of good plans and goals and then it kinda of puttered. I don’t know if I would say it was a bad thing, because it was time spent with family and my Grandma. Her days might be numbered and the feeling of being close to family right now feels important to me. Hence, why I didn’t get many miles in this week, which I feel somewhat bummed about, because I went into the week very motivated and excited.

But, these kind of weeks happen, right?

It’s not like the week was a total wash though. The miles I did get in were totally quality miles. Some physically and some mentally. Reese’s Run at the Olympic Oval on Thursday was just awesome. I mean remarkably awesome! There were a number of assisted athletes both young and older that had the opportunity to be pushed during the race. I ran with my friend Josh, whom I am running with during a number of races this year. It was even his first race.

Then on Saturday a group of us did five miles down Big Cottonwood Canyon. We set out to do a 10K, but we realized on our way up the canyon that we couldn’t park on the side of the road in fear of being towed. They do this during the winter months to avoid accidents in icy or snowy conditions … but … when it’s 65 degrees on a February weekend day there SHOULD be an exception, right?

Either way, the run was good and it killed my quads. Which pain is good. It’s telling me something I need to do more of, right?


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This is a run that I hope is a last tradition here in the Salt Lake City area. This was the first year that Extra Mile Racing put on this kind of event. Basically, it is a half marathon (or three hours all you care to run) event at the Olympic Oval in Kearns. It’s specifically designed and tailored towards assisted athletes (meaning athletes that need assistance running with either an person or in a wheelchair/stroller). Reese’s Run was designed not only as a race for these athletes, but as a fundraiser to help these athletes get the equipment and chairs they need in order to run more.

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Team Josh – We call ourselves Legs and Wheels

I first got involved in the assisted running community this past May when I met Elsha. Since then I have friended a number of other people within the community. I have ran with Reese Thorne (the namesake for this run) a number of times as well. I’ve found that though I run a TAD slower pushing these strollers, that it changes the dynamic of running. It’s no longer a solitary sport, it’s a team sport. Sure, I push, but they pull me along just as much. Whether it’s Elsha’s candid friendliness or Reese’s pure joy of running it has enriched my running experience tenfold.

That’s why I can’t imagine NOT being a part of this part of the running community. Besides running with Elsha and Reese, I had the opportunity to run with my friend Josh at the run on Thursday night. This was his first race being pushed. We’re still working on getting him a chair that works for him, but he had a BLAST! And, like anyone that has the name Josh he’s a pretty funny guy! (he’s a comedian don’tcha know?). We’re planning on running a number of races together this year starting with the Vigor Big Cottonwood Half Marathon in May. But, something tells me we’ll be running another race MUCH earlier than that. We’re both HUGE Disneynerds as well, so we are planning on going to at least one Disneyland race sometime within the next year.

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You can’t beat that smile of Reese’s!

But, I was just very touched with everything about this race. The pushers were amazing, the pushees were even more amazing and the people who came out to support and cheer on the athletes was beyond awesome. One mother made a number of signs to hold up at passing runners. I can’t understate how awesome it was.

I really can’t wait for the next Reese’s Run and I hope there’s another one done this year. This can’t be a yearly event, it has to be a bi-annual event. Just sayin’ …


Reese'sBannerI think some of my frustration for my running came a little from my run down Big Cottonwood Canyon. We were planning on doing a 10K down the canyon, but since we couldn’t park on the side of the road we had to find an open lot and run from there. Which wasn’t that bad, because I still got some fast, yet quad-hurting miles in.

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I don’t know why I complain about that? I think part of it may be my marathon-mentality of getting miles in rather than a good workout? I don’t know. But, with transitioning myself from marathon running to half marathon and speed training I mentally just have to let that go. I am not sure when that will come, but I think I just need to focus on the balance between speed training, having fun and racing. That’s probably where the key to breaking that mentality lays?

But, who knows? That just sounded good on paper.

Okay, back to Saturday’s run. Since we weren’t putting a 10K in, my goal was to run my 5 miles under an hour. Last year this wouldn’t have been a problem, but with my health issues and non-speed training during November and December I thought this would be a good goal that would push me. And, well, it did.

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I like to call this part of the run, “Deadman’s Ledge” … not hard to imagine.

The first half mile was up hill to make sure we got at least 5 miles in from that point to the mouth of the canyon. I won’t lie, that climb was STEEP! And, mentally, I was just got ready to run it. But, I mall-walked it and then at the turn around just let gravity do its’ thing. Which, being a bigger runner … I love!

The first mile I averaged about 13 miles including that run uphill, but my second and third miles were under a 10 minute mile, which felt AWESOME! I hadn’t seen those in a long time. I wanted to try to keep that up throughout the rest of my run, but that didn’t happen. So I just tried to push myself a bit beyond comfortable and that did the job.

There were a couple parts that broke my stride because of safety issues, but I finished my five miles under my goal at 59:25 minutes. I can’t complain about that! Now to just build upon that …


THIS WEEK’S WORKOUT PLAN

This week’s plan is two fold. Since I don’t have time for a loooooong run on Saturday I am going to have be consistent with my miles throughout the week. I would like to get a total of 15 miles in running and another 5-8 walking. I just feel the need to start getting more miles in. I think part of that has to be the awesomely good weather we’re having, but secondly, I just want to get this weight off that I’ve found while trying to work through my thyroid and testosterone issues.

I have an appointment in a couple of weeks for the testosterone so hopefully I can find a solution. I know they are intertwined with how I feel. I would just love to get rid of about 25-30lbs. Because I feel the difference. Well, and I know the difference. But, I am doing what I can on my part with eating as good as I can. I tend to follow the 80/20 diet, but maybe I should buckle down on that more? I am not sure? But, the focus on my diet this week is to fuel my body correctly and with good whole foods. Meaning, cut out a bit more of the sugar. Or at least be cognizant of it in what I eat.

In addition to running and eating, I am also focus on a being consistent with a weight-training plan and doing a weight-circuit three times this week (Monday, Wednesday and Thursday). I’ve lost a lot of muscle memory from the low-testosterone, but I am just going to do what I can. And, I know my body will respond. Maybe not as I would want it to, but at least in the right direction.


MY GRANDMA UPDATE

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My Grandma is back home. I believe I mentioned this on Friday. She’s doing relatively well. She still isn’t eating much, but has been drinking which I guess is a good sign. It’s hard to say which way she will swing, but personally I think her days are numbered.

So the focus is more on enjoying the time we still have and talking about family and memories. As depressing as that may sound there is a simple joy in it. I’ve always loved the time I spent with her eating lunch, talking about life and laughing about this and that. I’ve had a special relationship with my Grandma in that regard.

Whenever that time comes, it will be sad to part, but knowing how much joy I’ve gotten out our relationship brings me a lot of peace.

But, in the meantime, the focus is life, happiness and joy.


MY 2015 MILEAGE

Total Mileage Breakdown for 2015

2015 Training Miles – 54.85 miles
2015 Walking Miles – 18.0 miles
2015 Race Miles – 19.35 miles
2015 Total Miles – 92.2 miles
 
Monthly Total Miles for 2015
January – 78.8 miles
February – 13.4 miles

MONDAY MOTIVATION

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The Wednesday Roundup …

154699_1432880792886_350815_nAs I have mentioned some here on my blog and on social media, this past month or so has been somewhat difficult. A couple of weeks ago my Mom and I took my Grandma into the ER after she showed symptoms for the flu. We were there for a couple of hours and then released.

This past week she went back into the ER with some of the same issues which resulted her in being hospitalized for pneumonia. A scary diagnosis for an 88-year old lady who hasn’t been sick or hospitalized in over 40 years.

I won’t share much of her prognosis. But, she is doing well, she is recovering and has made the transition to an assisted living facility. If she continues on this path she can hopefully come home soon.

It’s moment like these that you realize clearer how fragile life is. We are not guaranteed tomorrow, just today. In addition to that it’s really made me focus on the relationship that I have with my Grandma. We have a very special relationship, she is constantly encouraging me to write, not just words, but from my heart.

Though tomorrow is not a guarantee for any of us, those memories and love are eternal. That I am grateful for more than anything. Because I know that after death there are no more tomorrows, just eternity.

And, I’ll end there with that sappy ending.

But, thank you for all of your prayers for my Grandma and my mother. My mother has been a saint and has spent nearly every night by her side. My sister has come and spelled her a few times too. Needless to say, my Grandma is being taken care of quite well and with lots of LOVE!


RUNNING UPDATE

I like the ideastretchy pants of periodically checking in with my running updates and achievements. Or even thoughts here and there, more than anything it just helps keep me on track. So that’s a good thing right?

My focus this week has been to run at home and exercise at the gym. In the past I found that I have a tendency to go to the gym to workout, but then just ultimately climb on the treadmill for a run. As much as I love running, I need to start focusing on the body as a whole.

And, this means a whole body workout along with the running. That’s why I have separated the two exercises. It helps having a treadmill at home to make this possible. I just feel that mentally I need the separation of the two right now.

I have also been adding a lot more steps and hill training into my regime. This is partly because of the need to get stronger, but it’s also been a fun challenge to do with Jill. She’ll do 30-35 minutes of steps and then challenge me to do the same thing.

And, for as boring as doing steps sounds, it’s really not that bad. I have a footstool that I plop down in front of the TV and then crank out my steps while watching either a Jazz game or more than likely the Food Network. I hate watching TV as it is, so this really helps me feel less anxious about wasting time.

But, so far, so good. I am running three miles tonight along with a half hour of steps and then tomorrow I am doing weights and playing basketball (yeah church ball!). But … then … on Saturday we’re doing a 10 mile out and back run UP and then DOWN Emigration Canyon here in Salt Lake.

That I am looking forward to A LOT! It’s both a mental and physical run that I need.

But, with all this hill training and steps workout there’s been a lot of talk between Jill and I about running the Buffalo 25K on Antelope Island on March 21st. We are very close to committing, but haven’t pulled the trigger … yet.

Stay tuned for that one. Saturday’s run could change all of that or commit us to the idea.

YEAH RUNNING!


AND THE CATS ARE GONE … 

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So file this in the sad category. I had to give my kittens up for adoption. Well, they didn’t go far, my sister’s nieces took them.

Why?

Welp, I found out after being a cat owner that I am EXTREMELY allergic to cats. Like, more allergic than one should be AFTER taking allergy medication. I would hold and play with the kittens and then get hives on my arms and hands.

Not fun. Not to mention all the other allergy symptoms.

But, I am not the only one very allergic to them. My mother and sister are as well. And, they were staying with my sister. It wasn’t fair for her to suffer like that until they could be outside cats. So, finding them a new home was in the cats’ best interest.

This won’t deter me in getting a cat in the future. I just will adopt one that is less of a furball and more of an outside cat. But, as for right now … CAT SHIRTS ONLY!!!


INSPIRATION STATION

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Time to FOCUS in 2015

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(ANOTHER NOTE: This comment may be directed more towards my mother than anyone else, but still the offer for a great eye doctor referral is still open.)
(YET ANOTHER NOTE: I kinda apologize for the length of this article. It practically became a book. I was planning on having it posted yesterday, but I was thinking about asking Father Time to write the forward, but he decline in lieu of prior commitments at Times Square in New York City).

Oh, 2015 … are you really already here? Gosh, sometimes I swear it should still be 2012 … not 2015? Where does the time fly? Is this the process of aging that everyone hates? It’s like you sneeze and all of the sudden you’re six months into the future. Maybe I am a time traveler with allergies and haven’t yet controlled my powers?

Okay, maybe not. But, the thought entertained me for a good 10-15 minutes. And, I might have also tried to make myself sneeze.

I digress. As usual.

I have a love/hate relationship with resolutions. I respect them and I see the need for them, but I feel like when a new year comes we all make these goals to accomplish and then by mid-February we’re done with them. Ask the local gyms they can vouch for that decline.

I’ve been stuck in that cycle as well. It seems as though as I age I’ve recognized that resolutions are more a tradition than they are an opportunity to improve ourselves. Resolutions seem like the time we fault find ourselves and list everything we find wrong with ourselves and then make these goals/resolutions/commitments to stop those habits

But, do they change? Not always, especially if you’re truly committed to that change. Especially, when those new resolutions were just you pointing fingers at yourself than a desire to change. But, of course I am talking in general not as fact. There are people who change habits and improve themselves … which is awesome.

That’s why the past couple of years I’ve taken a different approach to my resolutions. Instead of making new goals that I have no intention of actually doing or getting around to, I’ve gone for a theme. More of a state of mind, because I’ve found my goals are more than a one year quest, some of them take much longer than 365 days.

Then I take that theme and focus on the areas I want/need improvement in my life. Generally, they are the same year in and year out. There’s running, fitness, spiritual, career and social, etc. But, I really just try to put myself on a path of self-improvement going forward into the new year.

This year nothing much has changed in regard to my approach. There might be some urgency in some areas (read: career and social). But, without further adieu here are 2015 focuses …


running

LONG TERM GOAL: Run 180 races over 13.1 miles before age 40.

This has been my long term running goal for a few years now. Not, since I started my running journey though. Initially, I just wanted to run a half marathon, then that lead to wanting to run 12 half marathons in 2012, then of course that lead me to wanting to run a marathon. After that my goal was to run 100 races over 13.1 miles before I turned 40.

But, after I cranked out more than 50 races in 2012 and 2013 I decided to up the ante. I thought about 200 races, but 180 had more meaning to me considering the fact that I’ve lost 180lbs. which has changed my life around 180 degrees. It was just fitting. Plus, it was still a good challenge.

This last year I ran a lot. I ran over 30 races and a number of other long runs throughout the year. Between January 1 to November 1 I didn’t run on a Saturday only once. That’s a lot mileage. Over 1200 to be exact. But, I am at 84 races towards my goal. Which leaves me with about an average of 16 races per year towards my 40th birthday. Not bad.

I know that within the next few years I’ll be slowing down once I start a family and have kids. I’ve been kind of planning ahead towards that. I just want to get as much done now as I can before that all begins. I would kind of like to get that down to a 12 race per year average by the end of the 2015 because I think a race per month would be manageable once I have that kind of responsibility.

But, the goal is still 180 races and I am still very much on pace to reach that goal within the next six years.

MY 2015 FOCUS: I have a couple focuses with my running this year. One, is I want to run about 20-25 races. NO MARATHONS. And, if it is a marathon it would only be sweeping one. As much as I love marathons, I also hate them. They take too much time to train for and I feel like pooh for at least a week or two after running one.

But, another reason I don’t want to run a marathon this year is because I am still focusing on getting a sub-two half marathon time. I didn’t include this on my running focus, because I few it more of a long-term fitness goal since it requires training inside and outside of the gym as well as in the kitchen. So for more on that read the section below.

Another focus of mine is to hit my 100th total race on my birthday, August 15th. I am planning on running the Park City Half Marathon on my 34th birthday (hopefully along with some family and friends … trying to talk my siblings into running it with me!). I have no particular reason other than it would a special day to achieve that milestone.

So, in order to accomplish that goal and make sure I hit 100 races on my birthday I am going to have to plan ahead. Unlike past years I am not going to be able to run anything and everything. Sure, I’ll have some leeway, but I have 15 races between now and August 15th to get to that goal. I am going to have to sit some races out unfortunately.

But, I am not super bummed about that. I still plan on being around the running, so instead of running the race I want to volunteer at them or just go and cheer on my friends. One thing I also REALLY want to do is go and take pictures at the finish line of a marathon. I’ve always wanted to do that. The emotion at the end of these beasts is special and I want to capture some of that.

Anyways, after August 15th just know I will race pretty much anything. Anything goes. Gotta get to the 12 per month average and 180 goal.

FITNESS

LONG TERM GOAL: Sub-two half marathon

This goal eludes me. It frustrates me. Yet, it motivates me to no end. There have been times where I could taste it (tastes like chocolate chip cookie dough if you are wondering) and other times where I thought I would NEVER EVER reach it (if you were to taste this, it would taste like poop or chocolate Twizzlers … they are really one in the same).

I made this goal back in 2013 and worked HARD towards it. I got my body weight at good level, I really balanced my time in the gym with my running and I tried to eat a balanced diet. Going into 2013 my half marathon time was 2:23 and by the end of the year I ran 2:08 at the Nebo Half. I got so tantalizing close for me.

Then this past year I had the same goal going into the year. But, something happened. I started training for a marathon. I had taken the previous year off from marathons and unknowingly learnt this year that the mixture of marathon training and speed half marathon training doesn’t mix well for me. At all. The focus of marathon training is really more mileage based than speed work. Sure there are runners out there who’s bodies can do that. Mine can’t. I’ve accepted that fact. And, I am fine with that.

But, ever tortoise deserves a day where they feel like the rabbit, right?

And, last year, I just never gave my body the opportunity to recover from my (four) marathons and constant running. Sure, this sounds like an excuse … and … I guess it is. But, it’s been a frustrating year in regards to my fitness, because I’ve been having problems with my thyroid and testosterone as well. My thyroid once out of whack is (thankfully) back on track, while I am still figuring out my testosterone levels. I am going to a specialist now to figure out why my testosterone is low (the short answer is that in runs in the family). But, needless to say my treatment with testosterone medication was not the answer back in June. It just further complicated matters.

And, with that came 25-30lbs. of extra weight I didn’t want or ask for me. It never made sense to me why I was running 20-30 miles a week and I was still gaining weight. It wasn’t like I was a carbloading and recarbing at the Olive Garden every Friday and Saturday night? And, being someone that is conscious of their weight it’s frustrating. I know my running to strength training ratio from probably too skewed and I will need to balance out better, especially while working to get my testosterone levels normalized.

But, I’ve got to have faith in the process and with the diagnosis, while at the same time take more control of the situation. In the end it’s me who makes it or breaks it, not the doctor or some new drug.

MY 2015 FOCUS: The focus for my fitness this year is balance. Not just balancing out the running by not running any marathons, but balancing it out with the time that I spend in the gym. I am no longer going to be running miles to run miles. I will be focusing on running deliberate miles. I will be running race miles, race pace training miles, recovery miles and of course some fun miles as well. But, there won’t be any more 15, 17 or 20 mile runs. My body right now doesn’t want that and quite honestly can’t take it either.

I really want to focus on strengthening my core and strength. This means a lot of circuit training and lifting. I don’t lift much and that needs to change. I also plan on doing some cross training cardio as well. The biggest one being a stair master. I’ve seen how that’s helped some of my friends with their running and I want to add that into my regime. Sure, I can run outside here on the hills of Bountiful and probably get the same outcome … but … for now there’s that whole snow thing going on.

In regards to my testosterone I am planning on staying the course for now. I have an appointment with a specialist next month so we’ll see what happens. I am fairly certain they won’t put me on back on testosterone since I still plan on having kids and the meds can make you impotent. So there’s a possibility they might put me on hCG. But, we’ll see.

I can only imagine how exciting that was to hear about my health problems. Just stay tuned next time for a detailed report of my latest vacation to Casper, Wyoming. Now that’ll be exciting! There will be plenty of pictures of me at the local Pizza Hut and playing in a local creek.

I digress … as usual.

But, the focus is really being balanced and more deliberate in the gym, on the roads, with the doctor and especially my food. Which leads me into my next focus.

food

LONG TERM GOAL: Cook and eat REAL food

I wasn’t really planning on giving food it’s own category. It could easily be grouped into the ‘fitness’ or ‘running’ category. But, food is such an important aspect of health and fitness that it really has to be it’s own category. There is just so much more to it than eat in moderation, eat healthy foods and don’t eat fatty foods. And, learning that in it’s own right is a process.

But, I have an interesting relationship food. Over the years since my weight-loss journey began I’ve learned to respect it. For a number of years food was a drug to me. No matter what the emotion was there was a need for food. Happy? Food. Sad? Food. Anxious? Food. Hungry? Food. Full? Yes, food. Depressed? Even more food. Bored? Oh gosh, don’t get me started. I basically ate at every whim of emotion. And, I don’t think I am overstating that fact.

It’s been a process though getting over that. I’ve had to change my relationship with food to one of necessity not merely amusement. But, at the same time I’ve learned that I can’t deprive myself from everything either. That’s why for the most part I’ve followed the 80/20 diet rule. I eat well Monday through Friday and then have a free meal on Saturday or Sunday. I’ve also learned the power of a taste. I don’t need a whole bowl of ice cream to enjoy ice cream. A spoonful is sometimes all that would suffice. There are many other tips and habits that I’ve picked up along the way that I don’t feel the need to go over … BUT … needless to say, my relationship has changed with food. And, it’s for the better.

But, at the same time I know I can do better. We all can, right?

My relationship with food right now is kinda strange. I’ve turned myself into a boring eater. I am very systematic through the week. Every day I eat my protein shake, two hardboiled, two bananas and then usually either two mandarin oranges or some other kind of fruit. My lunch usually is leftovers from the night before … usually chicken and vegetables. And, then dinner is again leftovers or something simple before heading to the gym.

I don’t cook as much as I used to. I used to cook a lot of omelets and scrambles or whatever you want to call them. I’ve kind of gotten to the point where I just try to watch calories, but as far as the food source and what I am eating I don’t pay much attention to it. Which, is sad, because I do enjoy cooking. I just usually cook for others. The Rice Krispy Treats I make? I usually only take a square and then give them away. Though there are times I want to devour the whole thing.

Needless to say I know I need to eat healthier especially more fresh, natural and REAL food. Because, I know if I want to hit those running and fitness goals I’ve got to start with the plate in front of me.

MY 2015 FOCUS: The focus is really in the sentence above. I am focusing on eating REAL food. This means cutting out a lot of the processed food in my diet and focusing not just on eating fruit and vegetables, but knowing where my food is coming from. This also includes cutting out sugar. Not all, but most. Especially the highly processed sugar.

Let’s be honest processed is basically crack. There’s enough research out there to prove that it has the same effect on people. So why are we, and myself include, still loading ourselves with it each and every day? Sure, you might think you’re not loading up on it because you don’t eat candy, soda or whatever sugary vice.

But, the truth is … sugar is in everything? Companies add sugar to basically everything and anything. Why? Because it is so addictive! Not to mention the sugar, but they also add many ingredients to aid in that addiction. Then on top of that there’s the cheap ingredients and dyes that no person should really add to their bodies. Do you wonder why we have an obesity epidemic? Do you wonder why we’re one of the sickest people in the world?

It’s because we eat crap.

Actually, that’s not fair to crap. Sometimes I think we eat worse things than crap. But, I’ll step off my soapbox on that for a moment.

But, this is why I want to eat REAL FOOD. I don’t want to be a slave to sugar or some tricky dicky food company that tries to make me addicted to their food. I want to fill my body with good nutritional food that will in turn change my body into a powerful hardworking machine. Think of it like trying to fill up your car with Coke or Mountain Dew? It won’t run properly … or at all. So why not fill up with the best gas available? Why not make it run efficiently and smoothly? Our bodies are the same way. And, I want to treat my body likewise.

So my focus is twofold (I really kinda love that world) I am going to eat more real food and cut out a lot of crap while also reengaging myself in the kitchen. I want and need to cook more. I think that kind of goes hand in hand with eating real food so I’ll kinda be forced into doing that.

But, I am also kind of done with eating boring. Sure, I do love my daily bananas and hardboiled eggs, but there’s so much more food beyond that. There’s so much more food beyond sandwiches, omelets, boring leftovers and the likes. I want to cook more and refine myself in the techniques.

I think I am basically saying, I want to be the next Julia Child.

Okay, maybe not.

But, I am going to focus on cooking delicious good real food so I can fit those running and fitness goals sooner than later!

CAREER

LONG TERM GOAL: Create a comfortable career for myself that will provide me opportunities to help other people while raising and caring for a family. 

I don’t talk much about my current job. I do that for a couple reasons. One, my boss has asked me not to. And, secondly, I don’t want to. But, needless to say, I am ready to move onto something more challenging for my skill set. I’ve been at my current job for the past five years and I have had that feeling now for at least the past year and a half.

I’ve also been looking, but it’s really tough to find a job these days. Actually, more than that, it’s tough just to get an interview. I’ve had a few interviews, but nothing beyond the initial stage or phone interview. It’s frustrating, but I can only imagine the number of applicants each position gets and I am sure there are a number of people more qualified than me.

But, that’s still not an excuse to let the beginning of a career lay dormant. It’s also not an excuse to start getting creative. Who says that I have to go to companies or employers to hire me? Why can’t I get their attention and have them come to me instead?

I have a clear vision of where I want to be in the next 10 years or so. I want to have a career that not only will pay well, but will enable me to comfortably provide for a family. I don’t want to worry about expenses, bills, etc. I don’t want to live in excess either (though I do want a urinal in the master bathroom). I want security.

But, at the same time I also want to reach that goal in a career or pathway that will put me around people. I am a people person (if you couldn’t figure out already). I thrive more in a job when I am able to be around people by helping them become better people or individuals. It doesn’t even really matter what that area is … I just love people.

And, the more that I want to reach and attain that goal, the more I realize that I can’t wait for someone to hire me into a position like that. I need to create that opportunity.

MY 2015 FOCUS: My career long-term goal is pretty broad and odds are I’m not going to achieve it overnight. Heaven knows though I’d love that (anybody making an Idaho Lottery ticket run?), but that’s not reality. That’s not now. And, my focus needs to be now with the future in the horizon. I’ve got to be deliberate with my steps and go for it.

So, my first focus is finding a new job. I am aiming to find something that is within my skill set, but not necessarily in my immediate skill set. Does that make sense? I was a Communications major in college and while I would love to work in that field, I don’t necessarily have to. The magical thing about communications is that you can pretty much apply it anywhere.

That’s why I am not limiting myself to certain jobs or positions. I am however looking outside of higher education, mainly because I’ve in the system for over 10 years now. I need to get out of it and diversify my experience.

I know I will find something that fits me. I just need to spruce up my personal website and resume and go out there and be proactive. But, enough about my job.

The other focus that I really need to buckle down on this year is my book. I’ve been in the process of writing my weight-loss/running story for the past few years. I get a couple chapters done and then I rewrite it. I’m kind of a perfectionist in that regard and I need to slow down follow the process. But, really, I just need to realize that the first draft isn’t the final draft.

But, I really want to have my book done by the summer and to a publisher by the end of the year. I’ve always felt that my story has been meant to be shared. That’s one reason why I have this blog. But, the audience I could reach with a book would be much greater. The opportunity to touch or affect one person’s life with the book is worth doing it for me.

I have a couple other book ideas that I want to work on, but that’s not my focus next year. It’s finishing my weight-loss/running book. Because I know that will also open up many new opportunities for me for me to reach my ultimate career goal.

spiritual.fw

LONG TERM GOAL: Attend the temple once a month

This has been a goal of mine for the past couple of years. And, while I am … okay … at attending the temple, I am also not that great at attending the temple. There’s a lot of peace, happiness and clarity that comes into my life when I attend regularly. Not, only for me, but for those who I am doing work for as well.

Plus, I don’t want to take advantage of the temple. I live 3.1 miles (yes, a 5K!) away from the Bountiful Temple. There should be no reason why I can’t commit myself to attending it once a month. It’s about a two/two and half hour time commitment. So, why can’t I do this?

MY 2015 FOCUS: This really is more of a goal than a focus. But, in order to reach this goal I really do need to focus on the temple and what it takes to be worthy to be there. And, the focus isn’t really that tough to figure out either. It’s actually quite elementary … or should I say … primary?

  1. Pray
  2. Read Scriptures
  3. Attend Church

Yep, the simplest of answers. But, the key is being consistent doing those three things. Praying to me is second nature, while reading scriptures regularly is somewhat tough for me. Church is easy, though I will admit paying attention (or sometimes even going) to Sunday School is hard for me.

I am sure these excuses are pretty common.

But, there really is power in doing them, because by doing them it strengthens your relationship with your Heavenly Father and gets you more in tune with the spirit. Which really prepares you for the temple.

You see how that is all connected?

Since I will be attending the temple at least once a month I really would like to go to some of the local Utah temples. I have been only to the Salt Lake, Bountiful, Jordan River and Provo temples. I want to get to the Ogden, Oquirrh Mountain, Timp and even Logan temples. And, I think the Payson Temple will be dedicated this upcoming year … so add that one to the list.

So many temples to enjoy and 12 months to enjoy them. This is one focus and goal I can’t and don’t want to avoid!

SOCIAL

LONG TERM GOAL: Get hitched

I don’t think there’s much to really expound on with this one. It’s probably been my long term social goal since ‘Nam. Well, okay since the beginning or the Iraq War to be exact. But, still that’s over 10 years of working on that goal.

There are many reasons why I am not married. A lot of it had to do with my maturity level (me immature? heavens no!) and desire to wait until after I graduated from college. A college education was important to me and I knew from other’s experiences that getting through school after starting a family is extremely hard. I just didn’t want to put myself through that.

But, most recently, I think my reasoning had more to do with getting my life at a place where I could not just provide for a family financially, but also emotionally, physically and spiritually. As much as my journey has been about running and weight-loss it has been equally if not more about finding myself as a person. But, not just finding myself, refining, changing and becoming the person I want to be and need to be.

This is why I have a hard time writing my book, because I kind of feel like the weight, running and individual refinement is all equal in importance and my perspective of the three changes constantly. But, that’s also life I’ve found out. I’m not going to reach one certain point where I can see I see and understand it all, now I can write my book.

Life is an ever evolving lesson.

But, the past few years I have felt more ready then ever. Sure there’s some trepidation in being 100% gung ho about it. I mean, you’re putting yourself on a pedestal to be judged, scrutinized, measured up and whatever else women do to determine if you’re worthy of their time. Sure, it’s all about the game of dating, but it sucks sometimes feeling so vulnerable.

But, that’s life. And, I’ve learned that vulnerability can also be a great teacher and motivator to your character. So, as awkward as it might feel to go through that process, it’s good for you in the end.

See why I kind of hate dating? It’d just be MUCH easier if you met a girl and she said, “I like you, let’s get married.” And, then you respond, “okay, I like you do. How about next Tuesday?” And then … BAM … by next Tuesday you’re married.

Gosh, this is making arranged marriages not seem that bad, eh?

MY 2015 FOCUS: As much as my running friends would hate to hear this, but one of my focuses next year is to socialize with people that don’t hang out running every Saturday in short shorts and Speedos. (okay, my running friends don’t run in Speedos, but I am fairly certain that’s what my friend Tim is wearing underneath his kilt … just don’t ask me to look or him to show us). I really need to diversify my socializing. I should find a local Rice Krispy Treat or PEEP support group I could join? Maybe even take up a hobby like bird watching … or bird hunting? Or how about watching others bird hunt? I don’t think I could shoot a bird?

Well, oh, I could always take up deer hunting! That would be something I know I would enjoy. The less deer on earth the happier a place it is. It’s a proven fact (check the encyclopedia, it’s somewhere there in the middle).

But, the point is simple. I need to balance my social life between the running community and … non-running communities out there. As much as I want to marry a runner, odds are my future spouse won’t be a runner. Which I am fine with, because I could easily convert it later on.

In addition to socializing outside the running community … or should I say … balancing it with the running community? That sounds better and less like I am abandoning my friends. I need to actually go on dates. So one step I’ve taken so far is signing up for LDS Singles again. They were having a 30% special on Christmas and I jumped onto it.

I love how LDS Singles targets singles on family and couple holidays. They send out emails with the offer which sounds like a great idea, but it’s the equivalent of throwing buckets of salt over a bleeding heart (oh, if I ever become a musician I am using that line in one of my songs). Plus, it makes you seem pretty pathetic because you’re not married yet and everyone else on the holiday is happily married and/or dating.

Don’t get me started on their Valentine’s Day promotion.

Anyways, I am going to be more proactive in the dating scene this upcoming year and I would like to go on at least one to two dates a month (if not more).


Welp, now that you know WAY more than you ever wanted to know about me. I think it’s time to close off this book of a post.

I really am excited about what 2015 has in store for me. On my drive into work this morning I just felt this big sense of excitement that great things are around the corner.

The biggest thing I need to remember, and what we all should remember, is that those goals, hopes and dreams aren’t going to come to us. We have to be the ones going out there working towards them. We really are the owners and operators of our lives and I hope we always remember that.

So here’s to a happy, successful, dream-fulling new year! Let’s make 2015 the best yet!